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A Change Is Gonna Come

February 3rd, 2011 by Selise

You’re right Sam Cooke, a change sure is gonna come. Or really, it already has. There are so many changes going on right now it’s hard to ignore.

You’ve probably noticed that it’s been a little light on the posts around here lately. I’ve been thinking about that for a while and I think I’ve formulated what I want to say enough to get it down here.

I started my blog in January of last year. The 4th to be exact. And I posted every day for a year. A new outfit every day. I loved it. The challenge, the accountability and, who am I kidding – the praise! I was working in the city in a corporate office that was surprisingly cool with my print clashing, boundary pushing, skull wearing ways. I had an audience every day – off and online.

In November I accepted a job as a writer. Contracting to a company in Melbourne, I now work from home. And I do work. Believe me. I’m flat out each day and contrary to sly comments – I do not wear my pyjamas, watch daytime TV or slack off and search pictures of cats on the internet. Working from home is tough. The discipline required to sit at this desk for 8 hours a day. The crazy-making that comes with being holed up alone inside. The only thing easier is the commute.

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t regret the change and I know how incredibly lucky I am to have this opportunity. I can pee with the door open, listen to music as loud as I want (though it usually interferes with whatever I am trying to do so most often I listen only to the soothing sounds of a lawnmower, barking dog and the clicking of my keyboard) and eat a free lunch.

But with this change in career has come another change. I don’t feel like blogging. I don’t feel like putting together an outfit, sitting in it at my desk for 8 hours, taking a picture of it, taking it off and doing the whole thing again tomorrow.

And I’ve been beating myself up about this. How could I go from 100 to say, 20? What am I without my blog? What am I without seeing how many different kinds of floral I can wear in one go?

But here’s the thing. I never set out a charter. I never said I was going to post every day. I never promised anything to anyone except maybe myself. I have no obligation to do this if it makes me unhappy. And it’s not so much that it makes me unhappy. More it’s not as much fun.

So what I’ve discussed with myself today, in our daily staff meeting is this: Hey, you can post whenever you want. Post 43 times a month or once a week. Keep commenting on the blogs you like, if you feel like it. Because really? There are bigger things in the world than whether or not you feel like adding pictures and words to the gaping hole that is the internet.

Lighten up, kid. Go look at a picture of a cat.

6 Responses

  1. Ruta, Look Ugly in a Photograph says:

    I love these photos!!!!! The tones are so incredible, and love the looks of your skirt!

    I agree with your completely. I just post whenever I can, although I put my real life ahead of my blogging life, which is the way I think it should be.

  2. Ebony says:

    BOOOOOM! Amen. I think we all blog for different reasons and sometimes we just aint feeling it, while other times it's one of those little check-off things that make us feel good about ourselves instantly πŸ™‚

    I don't mind whether you post 43 times a week or once every 6 months. But I'm glad you started this or I wouldn't know you. Amazing you. The lady I look up to for her floral obsession and 90s grunge cool. So do as you please, I'm always gonna be here.

    And maaaan, free lunch and no commute is choice but don't you miss the co-workers? I've never had peers at a job so I'm hanging out for them πŸ™‚ I have an interview at jb hifi today!!! Wish me luck πŸ™‚

    Love you endless amounts. You keep keepin on.

  3. Kat says:

    Great post! You need to blog firstly for yourself otherwise you are going to make yourself unhappy trying to be something for other people. We love you no matter how often or how little you blog. So if it makes you happy to post 43 times a week go for it. Just make sure you are happy doing what your doing!

    I can see how your going crazy being at home all the time too. I am dying being unemployed. I had a job interview yesterday so I am keeping my fingers crossed. Do you have wireless internet? Cause then you could go sit by the beach on a picnic blanket and work from there. Give yourself a change of scenery.

  4. Snappy-Q says:

    Well said, well done. I will always be interested when you do post, and if you ever get your Aussie Day pics developed you could post them too.

  5. soychild. says:

    Wow! I laughed when I saw your title post on Bloglovin because I posted the exact same title a few days ago, from Sam Cooke nonetheless. I praise your taste in music πŸ™‚

    And a blog is for solely for YOU. Do what feels right, and I praise you yet again for figuring it out for yourself that you aren't obligated to post! Great topic!

  6. Emma says:

    Love it Selise xx

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